Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Life is a rollercoaster.

Life is a rollercoaster filled with many ups and downs. Cliché, I know, but I do believe it.
Throughout my life I’ve been told, “You have to take the good with the bad”. But you know what? I’m sick of it. It seems that every time one little good thing happens, three bad things have to happen. You may say, “Oh, you’re just being a pessimist”, but until you know the details of my life, SHUT UP.
That’s right. I don’t want to hear any more, “It can only get better from here” or “Think positive and good things will happen” because it’s not true. I’m not saying that everything in life is horrible. I guess I’m just saying that when I’m feeling down I don’t want to be lied to or be told things that you think will make me feel better. Just be real with me.
And if life really is a rollercoaster, I'm ready for some "ups" now.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Gives Me Hope

I thought today that instead of posting a normal blog, instead I'd share something with you. There's this website called Givesmehope.com and I love it. Whenever I go on I spend hours just going through the stories. Some of them bring me to tears, but in a good way. If you are ever feeling depressed or just need a little pick me up, I suggest you visit givesmehope.com. Here are a few of my favorites of the truly amazing stories told on the site:


A little girl was dying of cancer and her younger brother had a match for the bone marrow she needed. The doctors told him it was a matter of life and death. After he had the surgery, he asked the doctors how long he had to live. He thought if he gave his bone marrow to let his sister live he would die - but he did it anyway. GMH.


My little sister came home from school one day and demanded I take her to the library so she could get books on sign language. I asked why? She told me there was a new kid at school who was deaf and she wanted to befriend him. Today, I stood beside her at their wedding watching her sign... “I DO”.  GMH.


In school we played a game. If you agreed with the statement/question, you walked across the room. The question was "I feel comfortable with my body'. One of the biggest girls in the class walked across the room, without a second of doubt. Nicole, you GMH


In class we were talking about differences and how everyone is special. A girl talked about her freckles; a boy about his red hair. I asked them what was different about me and many exclaimed "You're taller than us!" or "You're older!" Not one mentioned I was black. A colorblind generation GMH.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

What Would You Do?

            Have you ever seen the show What Would You Do? on ABC? Every chance I get I try to watch it. If you don’t know of the show, the basic premise is this: a random scene is set in which something horrible happens and the viewers see how people react.
            For example, they once had a clip of two drunk college students (both were actors, neither were really drunk) stumbling around, dropping their keys, and then trying to get in their car to drive away. The people around them obviously could tell the students were drunk. It shocked me to see only a few people try to stop the students while many others just laughed at them as they drove away.
            This show really gets you to think about what you would do in different types of situations. In most cases these people were all complete strangers. When is it okay to step in and when is it not? This brings me to my story.
            About a week ago I was working my regular shift at Pine Acres as a receptionist. There was only forty-five minutes to go until I got leave and things were finally starting to calm down. No one had been up to reception in about fifteen minutes so I took the chance to check my email.  When I looked up from my computer I saw a CNA walking towards me. Thinking nothing of it, I smiled at him and went back to looking at my email. Then suddenly he was on his knees in front of my desk holding my hands. Um…awkward?
            You should probably keep in mind that I have probably had an actual conversation with this CNA about two or three times. Other than that he comes up to my desk every once in awhile and asks me to order him a pizza for his break. Also, this guy is at least double my age.
            After grabbing my hands, he looks me in the eye and says, “Is everything okay? I’ve just noticed that you’ve been dressing a bit different. You used to wear dresses all the time that showed off your body—and you have a nice body, a good ass and shape. It seems that you’ve lost a lot of weight. Are you anorexic?”
            I didn’t know what to say. Yes, since I started working here two years ago I’ve lost weight. It’s not like I’m trying to lose weight, in fact it’s the opposite. My body just randomly decided to drop fifteen to twenty pounds and I’ve been trying to gain some back.
            My question to you readers is this: was it acceptable for him to ask me that? I didn’t know if I should be appalled that he would have the audacity to ask such a thing when I’ve almost never talked to him or if I should be happy that someone was concerned with my health. Did he really think that if I was anorexic that I would tell an almost complete stranger? Did he think I would break down crying and confess all my secrets? I don’t know.
            I do know that it took me a good five minutes to try and convince him that I’m not anorexic. Hell, I can eat almost as much as my boyfriend at times, sometimes more. My metabolism is just unusually high. I found a website a few weeks ago that can tell you how many calories you eat in a day. One day I ate almost five thousand calories, double what I’m supposed to. And yet, in that week I lost two pounds.
            I understand people having concern about that and about my health. If I drop another six pounds, I’m going to have to go see a nutritionist. But honestly readers, in the situation above, what would you have done?

Yeah...I eat. Alot.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Hello Blogging World :)

I'm pretty sure no one will read this. For the few of you who may come across this, congratulations, you'll have an inside look on my life and all my crazy thoughts. I'm not even really sure why I got a blog in the first place. I guess my real inspiration was Jessi Haish. I read her blog a lot and it is AMAZING. I also know that I really don't write as much as I should. I suppose this is my attempt to change that.

I'd like to apologize in advance for possibly posting many crazy rants that might not even make sense to some. I'm not even sure how much I'll update. We'll see. As for now, I'll leave you with one of my favorite quotes.

"If they give you ruled paper, write the other way."